“I always feel like real life is such a letdown”
The moment we met Jules in the first episode of Euphoria, I immediately felt connected to her. Something about her spoke to me. The way she carried herself, her immediate reaction to being on the defense, the way her friends matter more than anything, being able to read her emotions and internal struggles on her face. This episode resonated so much with me. This past year, I started going to therapy for the first time, which was a huge step for me. I have always been the type of person to focus on everything else and others around me to avoid dealing with my own emotions. Seeing Jules talk to a new therapist was a great juxtaposition to Rue’s episode conversing with Ali, someone the audience has already met. The therapist can look at the events Jules describes with no prior knowledge of her behaviors and destructive tendencies. I hope we get to see more of this relationship in future episodes.
At this point, I have seen the first season three times in full. Each viewing, I feel like I start to notice things I haven’t noticed before, which makes me want to rewatch with my new knowledge. With Rue’s special, it was the first time I realized that Rue might not be the most reliable narrator. In the first season, we see Jules’s actions through her eyes. In Rue’s episode talking with Ali, it became clear to me how Her own feelings blind rue’s narration and how she doesn’t communicate her frustrations to Jules. Flip back to Jules; she feels as if the weight of Rue’s sobriety rests on her shoulders. “Fuck anyone who is not a Sea Blob” fills in some of the blanks that Season 1 left and gave us more insight by letting Jules tell her own story, not narrated by Rue. I am excited to see where these specials have left us going into Season 2, and it leaves me wondering what direction the series would have taken us without this.
Hunter’s co-writing this episode is so clear and demonstrates the love she feels for her character. Getting her perspective as a trans woman into telling the story of a trans woman coming of age is important, and I hope this episode solidified her spot in the writer’s room. Also, I hope more actors join the writer’s room, so we don’t get dialogue that was clearly written by someone who doesn’t know how teenagers talk, let alone teenage girls.
Also, I knew I was in for an emotional ride when ‘Liability’ by Lorde was playing in the first few minutes. Hunter… you got me.
This review was a taste of what is to come on my newest Instagram account. I wanted a space to share my thoughts on what I am watching and listening to and to hear from others on what they also think. One of the best things about Pop Culture is to talk with others about it, create theories, wonder about what is to come, and enjoy it together. In these hard times, we need that more than ever. I will try to upload some of these reviews here, but if you want to join the conversation – my second account is @zoesopop on Instagram; I hope to see you there!